Rollercoaster weekend!

I am going to start out by saying, "WOW!" What a great weekend! Saturday, we had a little cookout in Hilbert at my parents house and it was awesome! Tons of people showed up and I was again in shock of all the people that care for me and my family. I am soo bless to be surrounded by this many people who truly care. That cook out was filled with lots of highs and then a couple of lows.

All my family and friends showed up and ate tons of food. I was grilling like a mad man! There was lawn games and spirts everywhere! Then Trent , a buddy of mine, got everyone together and gave me and my family a prayer box. It is a necklace that has been passed around Hilbert for some time now. It was with Mike Ruland and his family first, then Teresa Halbach family, then it was passed to Parker Cummings and his family. To reviece this was such an honor for him me. Trent told the story and handed it to me and I immediately started to cry and kind of broke down a little right in front of everyone. I wanted to say something after but I was pretty hard to get the words out. I wouldn't say this was a low but it was a loop on the emotional roller coaster for sure.

After this we had more drinks and food and had a great time. We then moved on to the head shaving. The doctors wanted me to shave my head this weekend because of the port they have to put in tomorrow. Well I didnt get the frayer but Brad did and Trent got a pretty crazy cut as well. My sister and others took soo many good pictures of this. Another moment I will never forget! Another loop complete on the coaster. After this, I got to bed pretty early.

Sunday Amy and I took It a little easy and got some well deserved R and R. Amy's parents came up to Oshkosh to drop of a more reliable car for Amy to have so when she drives to Milwaukee she is safe. So nice of them to do that. It made me feel better too b.c. Amy's car is acting a little funny. We went out to eat laer that evening.

Monday was an AWESOME day for Amy and I!!!! We got up early and heard the Memorial parade in Oshkosh and tried to catch it but we missed. I wanted to thank all the Vets out there and have risked or gave there life for me so that I can sit here and write a blog and feel safe at night. Freedom isn't free thats for sure. I recommend you look up some info on the Tomb of the unknown soldier, makes me very proud to be an American.

After this we went to the Beach and had a picnic and got some sun. We also went to the little Zoo in Oshkosh. Thank god I put Sun Block on my head b.c i would have gotten torched! The rest of my body did.  Today was soo great and I loved every second of it.

Now I sit here on the couch looking over and seeing Amy sleeping and thinking about tomorrow. Tomorrow I start Chemo. Amy asked me about 2 hours ago if I was nervous or scared. I told her no. I guess I really didnt think about it. I wasnt scared. Well then she fell asleep and I took a shower. In the shower I was trying to pick off all the tape residue that I still all over my stomach and chest from all the surgerys and tests. And I realized that YES I AM SCARED. I broke down a little and thought about the treatment. Everyone react differently so I might be okay and It might be Hell. Then I started to think about all the people that gave me words of advice and sent cards and texted and messaged and called. It gave me strength. It made me pick my head up. Not gonna lie I am still Scared as shit but Im READY now. I am going to Milwaukee tomorrow with a little chip on my shoulder. Im not going let this cancer and this treatment hold me back from the things I want to do and the person I want to be.

Tomorrow I start chemo. It all starts tomorrow. The Journey will never end unless It begins.


Pictures from the weekend.