My first blog

Hi everyone. Well I decided to start a blog for my family and friends to look at and keep updated with what is going on. I want to warn everyone first that I dont think I am very good at things like "blogging" so prepare yourselves! I started this blog not only so all my loved ones could stay up dated with whats going on in my life but I also think that this might be a little therapeutic for me as well. Just to get things off my chest.

Well, so most of you already know. I have been diagnosed with Lymphoma. They are still unsure which type it is but they have it narrowed down to 2 different types, Burkitt's or Diffused Large B-cell. Both are aggressive types. From what I understand it is almost better to have an aggressive type of lymphoma b.c. the faster they grow the easier they are to kill. The slowing growing lymphomas are hard to kill. Either way I will be starting chemotherapy soon.

I was pretty made when i first found out what it was. I mean I literally was in surgery during the ceremony where is should have been receiving my diploma. Shortly after surgery I found out and was kind of shocked. That was Saturday the 14th of May. I have had tons of visitors come in and I want to say thank you to all of them. Anyone that has even taken 2 seconds out of the day to send a text or a facebook message, I want ot say THANK YOU. It has helped me soo much to know that I have sooo many people that care for me and my health.

Amy (my girlfriend) has been amazing thought this whole thing. She has stay with me every night and has done so much for me. I am so thankful that she is her and helping me thought this. I know this is just as hard on her as it is on me. Today I kinda talked her into going back to school today, she teaches at a middle school. She teaches math and she is amazing with those kids. I love hearing her talk about her day. She cares so much about her kids.

But this morning I am her alone and it is tough........ I am scheduled to leave today and let my surgery heal up. Lots of doctors and nurses are coming in today to say good bye and wish me luck. The hard part is when they ask me how im 'feeling' and how I am taking all of this news. Because of this, I think it is starting to hit me. I have lymphoma.....I start chemo in 2 weeks im going to lose all my hair. I'm not going to Minnesota for this internship anymore.  I thought Amy and I had it all planned out. Well in a blink of an eye our lives have changed.

Its been a really tough morning. I realize that there are going to be good days also but today It has finally hit me.

Ryan